drifting boats of the similar kind

"dont ask what i see/saw in him. he is the very one i set my eyes upon, who happened to like me back, and let me grow to love him even more.

ironically, i never posted them while we were still together. i wanted to keep us to ourselves. he's quite a private person too, anyway.

but now, i'm pretty sure he doesn't come here anymore. of course it doesn't warrant me putting them up now... but ah well.

its been half a year, there about, since i lost a huge part of myself. the wound is healing but i think it'll be scarred. he's chosen not to contact me, which hurts everytime i think about it.

i'm a dfferent person from the one he left, but i've not a chance to show him, to prove it, to be accepted.

and me, i've learnt all that i can, each flashback like a dagger through my heart, the brain chiding me for being such a fool for making all those mistakes.

never has there been a day that passed that i don't think back. i dont stop missing him."
Nat

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same boat, same moon-less river we drifting in, same unending hurt that seems to be there all the time.

compromising is always the best thing. why can't some see it?

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~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
im sure u share my feelings right

~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
the kind of bitter sweet, regretful, hopeful....sadness

http://sherryadensii.blogspot.com says:
we are in the same boat

http://sherryadensii.blogspot.com says:
TA DAH

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funny how silly humans are... caught up in the chains of pride and dignity, unwilling to show out true emotions... unwilling to be seen as without their masks of strength, vulnerable and open to all.

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~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
i can contact him anytime

~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
but i rather wait

~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
(until i lose patience)

~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
cos yeah

~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
i dun want to si2 chen2 lan4 da3 him

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and when u do show your emotions in the form of care & concern through phonecalls and dates - u are labelled as too caught up with him or being too possessive.

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~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
i meant im not bochup as u said i am

~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
im hum

http://sherryadensii.blogspot.com says:
sooooo

http://sherryadensii.blogspot.com says:
u chup too much

~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
haha in way

~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
in a way

http://sherryadensii.blogspot.com says:
same as me

~~¤nät¤~~ brain dead says:
yeah boy

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where is the balance then? find me a level to judge each and every actions or feelings as they come by flooding your senses, to which everyone can subjectively measure with/upon.

its just a hard fuck-up world.