so scared

 

juz asked him abt marriage and whether he will have affairs in it... guess what he said... he "don't think so"
meaning: there is also a high possibility that he would.

DO U KNOW HOW I FEEL!?!? utterly disappointed, dismayed and even disguested.

he even said that in the future "who will know what might happen", perhaps even I will be the one having affairs. wtf?

for starters, to me marriage is undoubtingly the most sacred act and custom that i'll put myself into. for me, singlehood and the outside world dies when i'm married. i expect, nonetheless the same type of behaviour and perception from my other half.

how horrible it must be to know that ur husband is out there with another woman... holding her affectionately, making love with her when that person should have been you. understanding that kind of anxiety, in all commitment-based relationships, one no doubt has to feel sorry for the one being cheated on.

now i'm having qualms abt even wanting to further my life with him... u've no idea how scared i am...

women cannot be trusted these days, they pick out the men, they seduce the men, they bed the men, they trap the men... i'm a woman so who should know better??

how much i trust in him?

i'm admitting not whole-heartedly... time n time again he has been making me lose my trust in him... since there were the flow of numerous woman folks looking him up (that i ain't know of), trying to date him... and he's horrible way for replying to my answers (which were merely testing his etiquettes)