dearest julien arnaud

for starters, i have neither pointed a gun at u nor forced unto u any form of threats, to see to it that u've to be nice to me and shower me with extra forms of attention. its on your own basis of willingness...perhaps u're just "eyes got stamp".

to the extend of exclaiming how much u do like me. well thanx, im so flattered. it is a phrase u use towards most of the girls out there. im not dumb can??? i do not appreciate the fact that u constantly like to shower me with forms of money favours - do u think i'll sleep around for money or gratitude??

i do not appreciate u giving and "sacrificing" (as u like to see it as) and expecting something back in return. this ain't how society works mr - i thought u should be street-smart enough to note that.

im sorry to say, i'm a hard cookie to crack. so if you're expecting me to reciprocate anything at all, please do not be nice to me anymore. im not a stupid naive girl. i do not think like others around my age do. if its gratitude that u're looking for - in the form of any illicit sexual favours and grants, u've got the wrong girl. i do not play such games. take it as i'm traditional.

and i do not welcome the fact that u label me as stupid when that term should be used vice versa - on you. do u think u can possibly survive well and strong with an excellent repuation and image in spore, from the way your private messed-up lifestyle is? u may be smooth, but there are always others who will pre-judge u. one advice: words spreads like fire, stop being STUPID.

perhaps in your light i'm selfish to some extend. so what? i love myself more then anything in the world now. nobody can betray themselves anyway, nor play, nor distrust, nor "lose-out" in any way. that's how cruel the world is.

as surely as i must add, i do not need to befriend any "players" or "swingers" in this small lil country. it might be a materialistic world, but contuary to that, i do not need to seek happiness in aligning myself with rich FUCKS like urself, that should only time and again, need me to constantly remind u to BEHAVE urself when u're with me.

flashing urself in the public taxi shows nothing of the sort of reputable background u are from. it only makes me perceive u as a "loose slut" if u were to be of the female gender. plus, dont think too highly of ur manhood - the color of it sucks by the way.

its the fact that i hate touchiness n indecency in any male-breed. take it as i'm alien then. my traditions and morals is something i will not subject to any form of change nor regard as indifferent and thus neglect them.

also u should stop proclaiming that u've changed in behaviour and character - from the past, becoz serena's incident just happened last week whilst clubbing. so overall, its 2 girls' claims of what a "bitch" u are against u - the verdict leans towards the majority?

the truth? i see u as sucha dirty old pervert, it kills all my enthusiasm just to receive any form of communication from u. my mood seems to become intensely "sian" thereafter.

i'm pissed. i do not need u to judge nor evaluate about my past relationships because u know nothing about me, nor tried to even get to know a single trait i possess becoz all that's in ur filty scumbag mind is - sex sex sex.

try harder on the pick-up lines and the different ways to suggest outings with girls. somehow, words that enter my ears seem feignly familiar. to think u have the cheek to continuosly deny the fact that u're sucha player and flirt period. its agonizing and ridiculous trying to have a decent conversation with you.

stop bothering me lahhhh.... irritating blockhead.

so what if i distrust u? what forms of trust can i rely on? i trust my own instincts better then any other ppl's. u sld read up on books that teaches u on "how to get others to earn your trust".

last but not least, avoid trying to coax me any further. take it as i'm not interested in u. not at all. i was looking for friendship, but i gotta whole lot of crap out of u, which only made me more stressed out.

go figure.

re-evaluate your decisions to your real goals and actions taken. because your underlying intentions will never go along with mine. moreover, i hate ang moh dicks.

point taken?