my new life

neva waver in strength

he made me cry my last drop of tears after he said i'll get used to his cold n heartless behaviour towards me. i'm questioning why i'm his gf. do i have a status at hand? do i have sth other gers dun? do i possess sth special that sets me aside from the rest? apparently not

my heart has grown cold. probably i sld have done that months ago. u cld say i'm childish. but i've completely eliminated all his msgs, his contact no. i cannot bear to have him present in my way of life.

till when this cold war of ours is over. i've let him know the last thing i told him. until he "wans" to see me/ talk to me. until he sees the need to treat me as i'm worthy of to be labelled as a gf, a soulmate, until he sees beyond material-worth and me as a dependent bitch, then he can find me where ever i'm at again. till that day, i'm free from this inquity to bind with him in faith and hope for a better tomorrow and a better treatment towards me. not until now have i ever felt so used physically, emotionally drained of my drive n spirit of giving and not receiving.

i grow crazy wif each day of torment he gives to me. from all those cold treatments of silence wif his excuses of work n more work. dependent wasn't in my world den. and wasn't even on him. i've had enough.

like to let him know. till the day u're ready to open n be affectionate wif me again, locate me in that realm of timeline. for now, i reprimand myself for my stupidity and naivity in hoping u'll treasure me for a woman not a toy.