confidence

lesson for the day

today was sociology class. sat tru lectures going "HUH?!" coz he was toking lotsa philosophical and chim-alogy jargons that my mind juz went blank! tried to keep up and digest his blah-bering nonsense. *brain zonked out*

had tutorial. oh craps! presentation. had group discussion at first. lemme say sth ok? i'm quite irritated at the way our "group" alias and "communicate" during group work. OMG! can i scream? i mean there's like only the really few of us trying to get the group working! wad are the rest doing? juz sitting ard and staring into outer space.. perhaps even looking for that green sun?? was completely vexed. tried to make everyone like START TALKING?!? in the end we juz had to pass the materials that some of us had done and let them fill in their suggestions.

can i complain anymore? i really cannot bear wif those non-initiative ppl! when the time came for presentation, i juz individually (the rest of the groups had 3-4 ppl go out to present!) went forward to present. where was my group? well, trust them to do the work and present they'll juz probably look back at the us and STARE.

have some cow sense

ok. so i'm being unfair in some of the remarks above. no doubt there was the few of us trying to make the group work. can i list the names down? ehhh maybe not.

actually i hadn't even intended to go up and do the shitty work of "presenting". my clique sld noe me on that. i'm no crowd entertainer. well perhaps to one or two maybe i'll try. but to a mass audience, i'll probably juz freak out. yes. clammy hands. faltering heartbeats. squeaky voice. beary eyes.

but u noe sth? apparently i was so pissed off wif the indecisiveness, lack of will-power & drive and the excitement of the group (basically they were so dead we spent almost the whole 15mins that was given to us for last preparation, STONING), that i juz went forward to present it. i tink i did quite ok. tried so hard to talk and write. oh well, thanx team. nice team work!! stevie(the lecturer) was quite nice and supportive anyway. :D i tink he likes me! haha! ok so thats quite thick-skinned.

so!? lesson for u guys out there reading this: HAVE some cow sense la!!! take ur bloody initiative and have some drive can???