i rem

i rem how we use to cycle around your estate giggling away

i rem how u woke up so damn early just to go church with me

i rem when you came to my place to have delicious curry fish head which got us both sweaty and "shiok"

i rem you had to turn the radio on most of the time when we were inside your room

i rem getting you clothings, ties and small things that saw you smiling in delight and trying them on instantly

i rem we both love spicy food so much we needed to have chillis every meal we took

i rem you hate peeling prawns so i had to do them for you

i rem sharing fish head soup with you, you'll always pour all the chillis into the soup before you drank it

i rem having steamboat with you

i rem the very first time we dated at embargo

i rem how i persuaded you to stop wearing old discoloured shirts

i rem when i laid and slept beside you in the dark, feeling your heartbeat

i rem loving the way you smell

i rem the chinese/ dialect cds your papa will play every morning as he cleans the house

i rem how your mama always asks me to eat more

i rem how your papa always tries to make me panic when i came to your house, telling me that you're sleeping with another girl, then luffing after a few seconds at my expression

i rem how your bro use to bombard into the room disturbing our privacy

i rem when we use to walk from zouk to river valley to have supper

i rem how your feet use to hurt wearing your nailed piercing shoes

i rem that i took you to meridian to get your watch repaired

i rem we ate at cine's food court and you'll share your food with me

i rem you had the same taste and liking for beer as i do

i rem how you danced that funny dance in zouk

i rem the way you treated all your friends - caring and generous

i rem the time i got upset becoz a girl bite your arm causing you to get a major bruise with teeth marks visibly hurting you

i rem that you always had a problem finding good pair of socks to wear

i rem the way your bed smells

i rem the cologne you use to spray before going out, and i had accidentally dropped the bottle breaking the spray

i rem when you were so brillant in finding out the way to light the candles and incense i gave to you, earning my respect all over again

i rem you like to pick at your old wounds and i'll be very irritated that you caused it to bleed again

i rem how your face looks when you sleep

i rem when you look at me into the eyes as we made love

i rem ironing your shirts for you before you wore it becoz you were so lazy

i rem you love kickapoo and sarsi

i rem you have chilli sauce wif your ba zhang

i rem calling you Darling! and you'll respond with affection

i rem seeing your brush your teeth, washing your face with eyes half-closed when you woke up

i rem scolding you for not aiming when you peed, and for not flushing after

i rem how you'll slap my ass sometimes when i fell asleep on your bed, purposely trying to irritate me

i rem rubbing your stubbles, once shaving your beard for you becoz you did a very sloppy job then

i rem late nights at your office when you had to get last min work done and it was very quiet inside, which made me a little scared as the lights were all off

i rem shopping NTUC with you at your house where you bought campbell soups that you love

i rem the little birdy that was rescued and placed in a box inside your storeroom, which i wouldn't know about if not for its high pitch noises it made

i rem how we use to call out to Yuki and say hello to the little neighbour's baby

i rem we ate at marina south, then broke my slippers and had to travel to raffles to get another one

i rem waiting for you downstairs your office, giving you a smile once you appeared to make you feel better

i rem travelling with you home on the mrt, where i could lean on your handsome shoulders as you slept

i rem when we first went far east to get a couple ring and engraved it with our names

i rem you wanted to watch the dawn of the death, and caused me to be so damn frightened during and after the show

i rem how i use to luff at the way you walked, and you tried to hide your smile always

i rem how u use to carry me, lift me with your strong arms

i rem your snoring habit that made me record it with your old phone, replaying it for you as you blushed

i rem your taste for mee-gua which got me shocked to see such a red bowl of noodles

i rem how you would throw in aplenty cabbages into the instant noodles

i rem you taught me how to appreciate eating tomatoes with your papa's delicious sweet curry sardines surrounded by them

i rem having sumptious meals at your house becoz your dad's such a great cook

i rem trimming your nipple hair before you gone for holiday

i rem how you like it just the way i did it

i rem entrusting everything with you, my secrets and my personal life

i rem the night we sat at istana park with mosquitoes buzzing around us but i didn't care abt it

i rem the long dark walk on fort canning which got you very scared about it

i rem how you used to kiss my forehead softly

i rem how your body aches as age catch up wif you and i'll rub your neck till you felt better

i rem sometimes you'll call me with the first word "baby" that touched my heart and melt it

i rem the long quiet east coast beach where we sat looking at the bright stars in the sky as you taught me how to navigate with it, and the fireworks that came about from the ships during the new year

i rem skating hand-in-hand with you, pulling each other, laughing non-stop

i rem playing at science centre in the wee hours, where we peed in the bushes together

i rem you bought a single rose and came all the way down my place to give it to me

i rem how we always showered together, me soaping your back tenderly

i rem we walked along clark quay on V day after a western meal which you didn't like but comply becoz i did

i rem how we use to hold hands and enter zouk to party

i rem the jokes n how we played around in your room - pillow-fighting

i rem i tore your shirt once and left you looking ridiculously cute with exposed nipples and a belly to show

i rem giving you massages and facial, digging your ears... and you were so relaxed and comforted

i rem sitting on the metal chair below your house at the park, leaning onto your warm shoulders

i rem how you insisted you were correct about the bus stop location but ended up making a silly mistake

i rem your courage and love for me that allowed you to walk into a lingerie shop alone to get me presents

i rem going to diners together with you to make payments

i rem sitting with you at suntec watching the coloured waterfalls, feeling the moisture against our faces, holding your hand close to me

i rem the numerous times we ate at kenny rogers

i rem the times we sat at PS kopitiam and had chicken rice, or grilled chicken that you'll buy for me

i rem how you'll massage my head if i accidentally knocked it hard against your steel bed railing

i rem how you looked after my hamster, feeding him, playing with him even attempting to bath him

i rem you bought me breakfast when you came over to my place

i rem movies and outings at bishan, sometimes sending me home walking beside me protecting me

i rem the teochew mui we had downstairs my house for supper

i rem you like the ban mian there too

i rem we will have fried rice and beer opposite zouk before we went

i rem watching TV with you at home, with you lying down legs outstretch and me curling hugging against your right leg

i rem watching la pi xiao xin with your laptop on your bed with you, luffing at the story line with you

i rem you being oh-so-patient, going to the salon at bkt panjang with me where i rebonded my hair and you read your comics till you fell asleep on the chair... and after that going to buy mac for me becoz i was starving

i rem how i always tried to style your hair for you but you always didn't like it

i rem how you always farted and gave me that look thereafter, expecting me to give u an annoyed look

i rem you came to my place and d/l gunbound for me and taught me how to play

i rem going to safti MI wif you, seeing all the tanks and machineries, guns and uniformed men, letting you enjoy the momentus memories of your army days you were fond of

i rem how you came down when i got trouble being molested and even wanted to beat the bastard up becoz you cared so much

i rem tickling you at your sensitive areas, annoying you, counting the number of times you "tsk", which in turn made you luff out to ease your stress

i rem we walked down from your place to the market in the morning to have breakfast there

i rem you used to walk so fast and i had a problem keeping up with you

i rem we hunted the door access to the roof top but was not successful becoz i told you i really did see a girl on the roof top enjoying herself dangling her legs

i rem the day i first saw you in army attire, but suddenly all was cold.

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maybe money made everything change, maybe its other reasons that caused it. for all the times we've spent, memories laid and built, is from which my love grows.

not for money not for greed,
willing to suffer, willing to plead.
waiting for a day, waiting for you to say,
lets be together, nothing else to say.