insommia or sleeplessness?

have to confess. every time he goes out with what he says is his guy friends to drink... i suffer from sleepless nights.

i stay up, awaiting his call, hoping he'll be back early each time. but the clock juz continues to tick away... till its past 3am... and proceeds onto 5am then 7am...

why am i suffering and sacrificing my sleep? it stinks!

why does he find enjoyment in drinking and scandalous lifestyles so much that he has to go "DIE DIE MUST GO" at least twice a week.

why can't he be like normal men, who mingles and does what normal folks to... sleep b4 12midnight... have a heart for the family and helps out at home.

why is he able to afford extravagent splurges on beer and cigerettes and complain yet that he ain't enough money for me.

why does he turn off his hp each time he goes out to drink.

why is he neva tired of the night-life and want to become like every grown up men is... responsible and knowing their limits

why does he not want to take care of his health but rather drinks until he vomits every time and sleeps at the void staircase till his mama wakes him up

why does he not act his age... 29 yet still as irresponsible and immature to see the bigger picture of things

why does he not want to reassure me of his presence... where he is at and who he is really with...

why does he lie to me every time... hide things from me... and thinks that i'm naive to believe him

why does he tinks that lying to me such basic things would earn me my trust in him in the long run

why does he tinks that such lies are deemed white lies