maybe the flame has died

fire doesn't burn as strong anymore
no more sparks of love - juz expressionless faces
no more coys of affections - juz plain actions
no more eagerness of meeting - juz monotonous impromptus
no more romance that lights up ur day - juz self-indulgence and independent routines

seek the light of the day
judge for yrself folks

he once said
"becoz i went church that day wif u, even my TOTO didn't hit a single number" -- GOD causes u bad luck?

he once said
"becoz of u i've to spend so much money unneccessarily" -- Don't u donate money freely to the cab driver each time u pub?

he once said
"becoz of u i cannot do my work and find enough clients to hit the quota" -- Den u sld stop lazying ard whole day at home? sleeping till 4pm, rotting on the bed reading comics or watching the junk box.

he once said
"lemme have time to do my work and hit my quota for the next week" -- Den am i supposedly free of a bf for a week? can i find someone to let me feel loved and wanted in the meanwhile u WORK?

he once said
"can u stop being so dependent and do ur own ting and let me do mine?" -- Is wanting to be close to my OWN bf a sin? Do u mean wanting me to not even bother u a single bit every single day and still welcome u with open arms when u decide to return?"

he once said
"can u dun compare wif other ppl" -- How do u know wads best for u? How do u know wads the level of desired outcome if u dun compare? Does that mean one must hence not compare with the perfect world and be self-contented and bask in their own realm of "world"?

wads real?
U act like a big macho man on the outside. But deep down u're but a woman. self-initiation, selflessness are sometings most males would possess. for u its juz the opposite. self-indulgence, selfishness, thinking ard oneself's own benefits, laziness, sloth and ur unemotional ways are juz some of the characteristics you'd neva even dream u withold.
WHY?
coz u neva like to compare and strive for the better, improve and be humble to learn and achieve wad others have set before.

you claim to be mature in endevours, experienced in worldly things. u're anything but that. your vision? Near-sighted