obsessive compulsive disorder

i tink i'm suffering i'm that! went shopping yest again! although i've no money *_* and i bot the really nice cute pinkish short skirt from heeren that cost me $35... ewww den i went to buy 2 sets of really groovy earrings. ended up one was spoilt the ear hoop was broken immediately when i wore it... its super big n dangly argh!!
my hubby as usual was late when we were suppose to meet at 5pm at HMV. becoz of him i bot the spoilt earrings la! :(~ coz i was so bored i decided to go shopping on my own first for the 20 mins he was late!! den he joined me and we bot the skirt! he said the skirt not nice leh! :( but i bot it anyway... den i went to try it outside of the shop.. i oso tink it looks horrid HOW!!! waste my money la! actually wanted to wear it there and there.. but he absolutely refused me to wear it! he said it was inappropriate to wear that in town. HOW COME! T_T
we sat at rocky masters outside cine and had kopi and pizza whilst he was toking to his client over insurance and work at another table. cannot disturb him n his private working environment one or else! there was the spiderman blockblaster premiere outside cine WOW MAN! suks! so crowded and the whole frontal of cine was blocked off from the public. but we had really goot view at the coffee hub and saw really many filthy rich impt ppl at the red carpet zone. ARGH! imagine dressed from head to toe in branded docci, DKNY blah blah. really wan to bask in that limelight one day! Will i???
den after his appt wif his really "cute from backview" friend called tan teck wee aka darren we headed off to novena where we had steamboat for dinner! yum yum! the tom yam soup was extremely spicy!! T.T bot of us were sniffing whilst commenting "shiok! nice!" haha!
they had free supply of tissue paper though juz at our hands grabs. so I made full use of it. my hubby is really a lazy pig! imagine i had to peel prawns for him whole nite! reason: if not he wun eat prawns! he's this really bad bad bad (can i repeat anymore??) habit of not eating seafood. T.T i really like prawns tt are fat creamy big-headed tiger type and he absolutely hates it (i dunno whether he doesn't like the taste of it or juz the job of peeling prawns) but he doesn't eat clams/ mussels etc too! so sad rite hiazzzz
that place was nice although quite expensive. the food was ala carte so we had to order the ingredients to cook in the hot pot of tom yam soup. cost of dinner $53.90!
whole nite my hubby was looking quite stress... really broke my heart seeing him so worried over his work n financial problems. gave him big hugs and kisses and sayangs whole nite juz to make him feel better... he's so stressed up tat he cldn't even eat dinner in peace.. he had to keep thinking and calling up potential clients becoz he wans soo badly to hit his quota... AIYO sayang sayang
alamak! den when we were walking after dinner to find a place to sit and relax after over expanding our stomachs, he gagged alot and puke a lil out at the side alley. *heart pain & abit gross out*
he was gagging alot the whole day already after the kopi session (he told me he can't take coffee or else he'll wanna puke)
but i tink the real reason he's been smoking too much! hiazzz nag at him to cut already he said he wasn't smoking alot... zzzz its like he smokes almost 3 times more den i do... yet he refused to admit it! (i'm so worried over his health)
he's been losing alot of weight already since we got together... i understand his work stresses him so much he has not much appetite to eat! sometimes i rather he dun work and keep being that fit (almost pot-bellied hunky hunk he used to be) but i cannot do anything to stop his transformation! i'm proud of him working so hard yet i'm worried for his health. he's got this habit of thinking alot and planning for his next income that i'm scared it'll ruin his mental and physic one day.
anyway, we took mrt back to dhoby gaut. i saw jieyong and his gf on the train.. haha my hubby says his gf looks super ah lian.
we walked to istana park where we romatic and tian mi mi for about 45 mins until the sky really threaten to let down rain.
seriously, wad more can i do to make him appreciate my presence and to allow him to destress a little? i noe i sldn't bug him and scold him for not spending enough time with me, but i get this routine in my head. like after i've met him on sats, i'll transform into this super understanding n caring gf for like the next few days, and then i'll be back to being super angry and he doesn't bother to sayang me for the lata part of the week. he's so stressed wif work, i'm so stressed abt us. he said i'm like this becoz i ain't got anything to occupy my time with. wad sld i do to occupy my time? join a class? pick up a hobby? sugesstions??