violated

i finally understood how it felt to be outraged.
all my years of self-taught that i'll fight against all odds to protect myself
there n then i was too afraid too shocked too timid to even fight back
i felt traumatized
why did they wan to do something like that to me?
is it for fun or excitement?
no the perverse act of theirs juz numbed my senses to counter-act
i didn't even scream loud
the only sounds i made were muffering unaudible whimpers
i was too frightened to be thinking abt the emotion - anger
it was the worst night that ever happened to me
like a mouse trapped ard fiercesome cats
they taunted n teased and played their hearts out
the only will-power i had was to try and protect myself
but 2 against 1? a ger's might against a man's?
how mighty can i be?

then they fled. i didn't even get a glimpse of their faces.
it was agonizing to even try n recall the incident again
yet my very boyfriend doesn't give a damn
he doesn't have the concern to even call after the end of everyday
days will go by where he will be completely into his activities
not even remembering he has a girlfriend = me
so its hard to contemplate
i having a partner but yet its my friends who are beside me all the way
i neva did breathe a word to him
his insincere concerns are useless to me
he doesn't care wad damn i had went tru
and i decided that independency and friendships that i have
its wad actually will help me tru this traumatizing experience