i hate u

pretty endearing stuff...
im sucha a picky slut.
i should go bang a wall and fuck a spider

i hate u for leading me on..
i hate u for leaving juz like that after that
i hate u for cheating my emotions
i hate u for shuffling away from the moments i wanna confront wif it
i hate u for hiding behind the curtain veil of pretence and deception
i hate u for ignoring my phonecalls juz as u say u're bz
i hate u for delegating every weird happenings to the reason that i was behind it
i hate u for lying to me right in the face
 

i hate u for raising ur temper at me
i hate u for letting me down
i hate u for giving me thousand and one reasons why u just dowan to haf a gf
i hate u for reminding me of the past
i hate u for deceiving me into falling so deeply for u yet u turn around after all that charms and give me a flat "NO" in the face
i hate u for all the sweet things u done for me only to deem them purely insignificant
i hate u for being MR nice guy to everyone
i hate u for making me suffer what im feeling now
i hate u for allowing me to distrust all men in the world BECOZ OF U!
i hate u for being so happy with others yet so unhappy around me
i hate u for wanting only to be friends with me w/o giving me chance!!!

Am i so undesirable?