i feel goot now!

i gave my very first tieds!

went chuch yest wif dawn sharon n siling. felt goot to be back wif GOD. prayed for strength to go on this new stretch of my life. prayed for my family. prayed that somehow GOD will change him to become a better man. had moments when my eyes watered alot. maybe i was juz too emotional. gave my very first tieds from my own pocket money. not alot but it felt good. God will double my fortunes. i believe him. sermon was nice and interesting.

had lunch wif all of them. delicious grilled chicken again! yes.. and i took courage to msg him "say something now!" after all the replies he finally said sth nice n mushy. felt good. had trouble trying to not smile. went to his house after lunch.

kissed and made up. the battle is won on my side! i oways win these battles. but i doublt it'll last. he'll be a different person on weekends. super nice n give in to me. den when weekdays start, and he's back to his work, he'll become cold and ignorant again. routines like these neva end. i'll get used to it. had delicious curry chicken for dinner. OMG so yummy i drank alot of the sauce. felt piggy n fat.

his bed is stained. had some exercise. almost stained it again. his palm was fast enough to prevent the leakage. lol, cannot stop luffing after that.

i tink GOD made something change in him. i believe He did, and i noe He'll continue to make changes in him to become more aware of others' feelings out there. we cannot go tru life being juz stubbornly our personality. we've to adapt and change and understand the needs of others too. i really hope he'll realise that.

sat's party

went to my buddy friend shiwei's company party. wasn't feeling goot becoz of wad happened earlier and she knew it. got to know alot of new ppl. like paul and john and george. nice young boys. pretty cute. but young still. had private moments wif shiwei. had trouble controlling my tears. had a big bear hug from her. that felt nice n comforting. alot of them commented that my golden skirt was nice. felt good. had to ta pao KFC back to the house for dinner becoz they didn't wanted to leave for newton due to caiyun's isolation earlier on. they felt worried for her?

was moody after the dinner. wanted to go home. had a spin in the car be4 they dropped me off.

new friends :D

funny how new ppl bonds given so short time limit. i'm happy i got to noe wilson and ronald mcdonalds from my sch. we're gg to get books from bras brasah tonight. den maybe dinner outside too. ronald i dunno abt him. he seems always so mean and sacastic towards me. i've always guys treating me differently. well mainly 2 catergories. absolutely nice and sweet or the reverse, mean and condescending. well i grasps both well enough. when i'm the nice mature me, i get the responds of the first. when i'm the cranky and childish me, i get the other responds. *shrugs*

then i had asked wilson if he had a gf. he has. sweet and uneventful. and they're typically "sex after marriage" type. nice but unrealistic. but i'm not trying to offend any1 by saying that. maybe its juz my perception. maybe its juz my way of life. traditional thoughts dated way back to ancestors days ain't my cuppa tea.

thanks to all my friends who were there for me when i was feeling low back then. tisha my sweetest best friend and companion i love u! u're oways so thoughtful and logical in ur reasoning and u always are there for me when i needed some1, shiwei for ur effort to keep me company, helping me broaden my circle of friends, and ur undying support in persisting that i keep a smile on my face whenever i'm out and away from my worries of mine! u taught me things and concepts of how to perceive life, go tru it unscarred and being a strong woman on the whole. thanks to all the rest i ain't mention above. :)

10 reasons to trade in your boyfriend
You know it's time to trade in your boyfriend for a better model when…

1. He claims he'll never, ever cheat on you, but he cheated on his ex in order to be with you.

2. He's always comparing you to an ex.

3. He refuses to show you much attention in public and he doesn't invite you to work functions where a date is required. If you man is guilty of this one, then join for free and make sure if he ever does ask you to be his date to an important occasion, you can apologise sweetly and tell him that you have another date that night!

4. He continues to see his ex but "only as friends." They see each other on the same nights as when they were dating, and he refuses to tell the ex that he's dating you now because he doesn't want "to hurt her feelings."

5. He won't introduce you to his friends until you're "on solid ground." But you've been dating him exclusively for six months!

6. He spends more time online doing "research" than with you, but he can never explain what he's researching. Definitely time to push him off the computer and jump online to search for his replacement!

7. He works out at the gym every night and on weekends for its "health benefits" but never builds any muscle… and actually seems to be gaining weight.

8. He breaks up with you when his ex is single - then wants to make up when his ex is involved.

9. He loves to go out with his friends, but every time you suggest a night out, he has "a once in a lifetime" sporting event that he must watch.

10. He loves you when you leave him but needs "more time to himself" when you're together.

If your man is guilty of any of the above, then its time to search for a boyfriend worth keeping hold of.