no love 

BROKEN HEART! 

For terence

Your trance of love is seeking, to turn this world around.
But in my state of blind confusion, no God can pull me out.

I see ur love is willing, to turn me inside out.
Its hard to know wad u're thinking, when u look straight at me now.
And then i see you standing, the lonely tears i shall cry.
I was beside u, hand-n-hand before,
Now ur lonesome figure, illuminates my despair,
greater that needst my anguish, my heart's died without a care

I wish love will release me, it's despair that i find hope.
When ignorance is bliss, won't you save me from my wraths...no?

You're cold that way, and that's why u say... the things that u say.
You can't attract, the things that u lack... coz u're trying in vain.

I always believed, u & me as one
Then one day, u turned your feelings ard
Without my light of guidance, everything seems unknown.
But Together we can walk tru' the long and dark road.

It's always the crazy times, you find u'll wake up n realize...
it takes more den your silly stance, to make things go right.
you spiral down n seen the proof, you'll neva believe
wad i produce or summon to be the truth.

you kneel in the dark, n dream of deads alike, juz in pure hope to put things right.
But you forget, my presence always by ur side.
silent and always optimistic, to give u the strength to run on.
the race is long, i've no regrets at all.

future seems bleak, as the sun remains overshadowed in grey.
where for thou seeks? the light that is in my heart given only to you.
Convinced of my own deception, i've always been a fool (at love)
i fear this love reaction, only towards thou you.

A rose can neva lie, abt the love it brings
And i could neva promise, to become any of those things.
Blessed are the shallow, depth they'll neva find
Seems to be of some comfort to know, in the emptiness i shall hide.

Exposed beyond the shadows, you take the blindness from me
U gave me desires, and hopes of a better being - me
look at wad i've done, this broken picture i've painted
it looks like my heart, or wad still remains of it

Convinced of the weight, your interpretations are not wad i see
Your voice has grown cold, juz listening makes me bleed
Your intentions were purely innocent, yet u protrayed an inhumanly stance
juz to break my heart, and the desires it kept.

Cause i remember it was much redder
And i remember it was much brighter
the days u spent with me
the hours we grew into each other more passionately
Wherest thou passion, thou heart has flown?
into a realm that i cannot yet see - unknown.

Can u stay n dwell for awhile?
try to imagine the past... wif me in ur arms
I still smell the fresh cologne u wore...
the day u hold me close, embraced in ur warmth without a flaw

All my love for u held up in vain,
no reason to rhyme, much less it ever breaks the chain
or emptiness, loneliness i've sunken beyond
so scared of it yet its before me as real ever before
might not get up again, so in my brokenness i have to confess
so happy to have, love n be blessed
in times of harmony, in times of pain,
in times of sickness, in times of gain

All these memories i withold, so strong within my mind
my heart is consumed, with whatever love i can find
its given unto u, like none other i've done
becoz u, shown me wad i am and will become

my tantrums, my insecurities, my faults
These shame i carry, as a burden reminding forever
that wad they thus have forced
your departure, ur love forgone.